Broken, Mended And Made Whole

As I travel city to city and nation to nation, I have discovered something true about everyone – we’ve all been hurt at different times in our lives. Some hurts are only on the surface and aren’t too bad; but other hurts go deep and leave scars in our minds that affect us for years.

Many times the people closest to us don’t even know what we’ve been through because we hide it so well.

I meet men and women each year that are held back in life (emotionally, relationally, even spiritually) today because of something that happened in the past. Sometimes it happened when they were a child, a teenager, or even just the previous year, and it has totally occupied their mind, their thoughts, their behavior and moods and it’s stopping them from moving on.

I’m writing this article for anyone who has (or knows someone who has) experienced rejection, been wounded emotionally, abused, abandoned – and although they’ve blocked it out – something still isn’t totally right in them. They want to move on, They want to get on with their life, but something always pulls them back.

We must recognize that our enemy, Satan, will use hurtful experiences to break our heart, to tear us down, to wipe us out and to steal our destiny!

I know because that’s my story.

I went through some very painful times of violation and abuse growing up and I hid every bit of it from my parents and those who loved me. I hid it behind a giant bandage of activities, a big smile, and accomplishments. Meanwhile, I felt like I was bleeding on the inside.

Voices in my head were screaming at me:

“You’re ugly”
“You’re worthless”
“You’re not pretty”
“You’re a piece of trash”
“You don’t matter
“You’re not special”
“You’re gross”

And rather than get the healing I needed, I put a giant bandage over this internal wound and just covered it up. I wanted to pretend it never happened. But when you’re hurt inside – it’s eventually going to show up on the outside. 

Since I felt so bad about myself inside I had to do things on the outside to feel better about myself (at the time I didn’t know this was why I was doing it). I wanted to excel and wanted everyone to like me, but I didn’t want people to get close to me. I later discovered that I had developed a compulsive fear of rejection.

I just covered up the hurt with a bandage, but bandages don’t medicate or heal deep wounds. I think it’s funny how a child can get a small scrape on their knee and as soon as a bandage is applied the crying stops and they have instant relief! Too many times we try to do that with emotional injuries but it doesn’t work.

We receive so many letters and emails at our ministry from people who are controlled by hurts in their heart. For some, the physical injuries have healed but the hurts on the inside have not.

God wants to heal every hurt! In Jeremiah 30:17 He says, “For I will restore health to you and I will heal you of your wounds, says the Lord.” He wants to comfort, to restore life, and restore the years that Satan has stolen. He declares, “Yes, I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore, with lovingkindness I have drawn you. Again I will build you and you shall be rebuilt” (Jeremiah 31:3-4).

Years ago God led me through a personal journey of emotional healing. He showed me how to have victory and healing in this area, and I want everyone suffering from the hurt of the past to experience the same victory and healing too.

Jesus wants to heal you from the inside out. You may have things on the inside of you that have been eating away at you for years and YOU DO NOT WANT to talk about it, face it, deal with it, or treat it. You’d rather ignore it. But just because we ignore something doesn’t make it go away. I know because I tried that.

If you or someone you love is being controlled by hurts of the past, maybe you can identify some of the following symptoms of unresolved emotional hurts:

At times you have no real passion for anything.
The smallest tasks wear you out.
You lack vision, purpose and meaning to your life.
You wonder why you’re even here.
You feel like you’re in a rut or just existing.
You often start something, get bored, and never finish it.
You get excited about pursuing God and His plan only to find that passion gone in a couple days.

God wants you healed…from the inside out. You can’t fulfill your God-given assignment until you get mended and made whole. Our Heavenly Father wants you to wake up each day feeling light, not heavy and burdened down. He wants you to live with passion and enthusiasm, not dread and anxiety.

Isaiah 61:1 says, “He has sent me to heal the heartbroken…and comfort all who mourn…” Jesus came to set the captives free; Satan came to take the free captive! If there is a time you are physically sick and have to go to the doctor, you know that no one else can go for you. You can’t send your mom. You can’t send your pastor. You can’t send your spouse. YOU HAVE TO DO THIS FOR YOURSELF!

Think about when someone goes to see a doctor, the meeting is always in private. What am I saying? Get alone with God. He is the great Physician. In these private times with God, healing can take place on the inside and it will eventually show up on the outside.

Get comfortable being alone with God. You are in the safest possible place when you’re in His presence. God’s love is THE CURE for every wound in your life! And it’s solely up to you to receive it.

When a doctor prescribes medicine, he doesn’t go get it for you.
When a doctor prescribes medicine, he doesn’t buy it for you.
When a doctor prescribes medicine, he doesn’t make you take it.

It’s UP TO EACH PERSON to seek healing in their own life… physically AND spiritually. Some might say, “I’ve done this before! I’ve already turned to God, but I’m still wounded inside.” It’s not that they’re not doing the right thing – they’re just not doing it long enough to see change!

Jesus paid a tremendous price so we could be whole and enjoy an abundant life. God promises in His Word, “The righteous cry out and the Lord hears them. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit” (Psalm 34:18).

Jesus can and will heal every hurt and I want to see hurting people experience the same healing that dramatically changed my life years ago.

  1. amy

    I just wanted to take the time to thank you for your words and encouragement. For over a year now my husband and I started to go thru a change in our lives that seemed as if we were drowning. I started to listen to biblical teachers online because I knew if I could just keep hearing the word of God I would overcome our obstacles and I came across Jerry Savelle ministries. I had heard of his ministry but not really took the time to listen. One day I went to his website and started to watch the broadcasts with you in them and you really broke down the word into an understanding that I could relate to. Most everyone always made it sound like this was so easy but when you spoke you gave examples of what to do with the word and how you did it yourself which made actual sense and easier. So thank you and on top of that you have a sense of humor which made it fun to listen to.

  2. Wilhelmina

    I felt this message was actually prepared for me. Thanks so much for blessing my life through the message. Truly, I felt relieved when I read it and I must bless God for you. I’m at a junction in my life that I really need to hear more of these. Thank you, thank you, thank you.

  3. Jacqueline

    This article explains EXACTLY where I am in my life, I mean, to the T. I really needed to read this. Thank you for being such a faithful vessel for the Lord! God bless you, Terri!

  4. Diane

    I am reading this thinking what time I have wasted during my struggles
    God has never failed me but I have him so much but reading your article jolted my soul and made me yearn to get back to the basics
    On my knees before God and reaching out to Him for guidance and Mercy! You article didn’t step on my toes it ran across my heart and I need God so that I can be the wife, Mom, grandma, daughter, sister, aunt, friend I need to be!

  5. sonja

    Dear Pastor Terri

    This article is indeed an eye opener. I just don’t know how I will ever get inner healing. Walking around with the scars of emotional/physical/sexual abuse. I’m a 45 year old single lady without kids or a husband, because I couldn’t stand the thought of ever sharing my body with someone and having kids and have this massive walls built around me and don’t trust anybody. Even when people tell me that they love me I just laugh at them. The generational curses and soul ties have been broken over me, but still things just don’t get better. It’s as if the enemy is just too strong and it feels like God is getting tired of me and maybe He just gave up. I was never able to experience His love. I know this which I’m writing is very negative, but I’m at the end of my rope now. Maybe if you can please advise me what the way forward is to get total freedom.

    Thank you
    Sonja

  6. Cindy

    I read Sonya’s email and I totally understand. I’ve been very depressed lately – beyond what I’ve felt before because I do truly feel alone. I don’t believe God loves me and I’m tired of trying. I’ve been rejected by so many people and ostracized that I don’t want to try to reach out anymore – I’ve been hurt so many times and have had people criticize me that I just work and isolate. If you have friends that care about you – you are lucky. I understand that you may want a relationship – and I’m sure it is available for you. You sound like you have a good heart and are reaching out – He will help you. You are good enough just as you are. You don’t have to lose weight or be perfect – you can and will find someone – just as you are. You are enough – right now. I want to encourage you – that you already are free. You really are. I hope you read this and get encouraged. Be good to yourself – you are worth love – just as you are.

  7. Sarah Hetman

    A few days ago I had just experienced an “Ah-ha” moment. I was lying in bed talking to God, as I do every night, about wondering why I get so frustrated and angry at certain things. I realized I had never healed from my previous marriage. I wasn’t upset over the split, but the abuse that was wrapped up in my marriage I had never healed from. I went into survival mode, kept myself distracted, and nearly 6 years later I’m still doing it.

    The moment I realized I was sitting in my own prison I cried. I haven’t cried from any of that pain for so long, I’m not even sure if I ever did cry. No wonder I can’t move forward! Kind of hard to move forward when you’re wrapped up in the chains of your past. I wouldn’t have gotten very far. I have been praying for healing in my heart, for me to be able to trust again, and not to compare every man I meet to my ex-husband-always second guessing their intentions and their character. Also, I shamefully admit, moments of when my son does things that remind me of his dad. His father isn’t in his life, so its not learned behavior, but just his personality traits or even facial expressions. I need to see my son as just himself and not parts of his father.

    I thank God I became aware of this and asked for Him to walk through this with me. I have been in a season of being alone quite often. No matter the plans I tried to make or the people I tried to see, nothing worked out. I knew He had a reason for me to be secluded, and on November 1st I finally understood why. He needs me to spend time with just Him. I know He can heal my heart and mend my deep wounds. I know God has incredible plans for me, but I need to be healed first in order to achieve them and to be a better mother.

    Thank you so much, Terri, for writing this article. It couldn’t have come at a more perfect time. I love how God uses you.

    Blessings,
    Sarah

  8. Rhonda

    Yes I feel this to I have ran 14 marathons thinking that I could run from my pain I still feel it I trust no one not even myself feel like I could never good enough for god since I have never good enough for my own parent to want me not mad just sad that I’m getting older and still hurt from past abuse and relationships

  9. Sunshine

    Thank you Pastor Terri. My advise to you is keep soldiering on in prayer. keep reading the bible and always look up to inspirational messages. Messages of hope.

  10. Trish

    Terri,
    Thank you so much for sharing your heart, your pains & struggles! I have read Making your Dreams Bigger than your Memories & Untangled! I follow you & your dad on FB daily!
    I still struggle day to day with past & present issues & hurts in my life but I see it getting better as I lean more & more on God! Some days are down right unbearable & some good!
    I thank God for you because our struggles & hurts are so close in nature!! I will keep pressing forward & not look back because I know Gods got greater things in store!
    My Dreams ARE bigger than my memories!! I chose to follow them!!!
    May God always bless your ministry!
    Trish :)

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