Two months after I got my driver’s license at 16 years old, I was at home one rainy Monday night doing my homework. I ran out of paper so I jumped in my brand new red, Mustang convertible and headed for the store. When I got to the stop sign at the end of our street, I put on my brakes but the car slid in a 180 degree turn on the wet pavement. As I was sliding, a car going 50 miles per hour hit me head on!
Everything went black. I don’t remember anything except lights coming at me and then waking up later seated totally in the passenger’s side of my car. I thought I was dreaming. I got out of the car and just stared at my car in the ditch trying to understand. I felt something pouring down my face and when I reached up to feel my head – it was gashed wide open! My head had actually cracked the front windshield.
Next thing I know, I’m sitting in an ambulance and the paramedic is wiping the blood off my face. I couldn’t help but think about him taking my make up off – and how I really wished he wouldn’t! That’s when they knew I was totally conscious!
He asked, “Are you hurting anywhere?”
I said, “Yes. It hurts so bad!” I pulled up my jogging pants on my right leg to show him where the pain was excruciating and there it was: a tiny, little scratch across my knee! He simply wiped the blood off. Meanwhile, my head was gashed wide open with arteries hanging out….but all I could feel was the little scratch on my knee!
What I’ve realized is that when we’re hurt in life, we tend to focus on minor things when the real issue is left untouched.
To ﬁnish the story, I had to get stitches on the inside and outside of my head, and then they allowed my mom to take me home. I realized through this painful experience that as I began to recover, the healing process can be more painful than the initial injury. As the days went by, my stomach muscles became so sore that it became more and more difﬁcult to get in and out of bed. The bruises on my face began to turn dark purple. And my right eye turned bloodshot after about three days.
When word got out about my wreck, all my friends wanted to come by and check on me. As each one visited, they all wanted to “see the wound” and “talk about it”. And each time I pulled the bandages back and exposed the wound, I delayed the healing process.
And so I’ve discovered how this accident parallels what we face when we encounter situations that hurt and wound us in life. Many times we experience something so painful at one point in our lives and it takes twenty years to recover! We often deal with the effects of our wounds and not the cause of them. And the truth is: the healing process hurts . . . and it may take longer than we thought to totally be healed. As long as we keep talking about our pasts, exposing our wounds to every new set of ears, we are delaying our own recovery.
Satan works from the day you are born to bring hurts into your life. He sends messages your whole life that say you’re not valuable, you’re ﬂawed, something is wrong with you, you’re not good enough, you’re worthless! We’ve all been hurt at different times in our lives, some more severe than others. Some hurts are only on the surface – not too bad; others go deep and leave a permanent scar in our minds and affect us for years (maybe even a lifetime).
Is there something from your past that wounded you emotionally, an experience of rejection, betrayal, or abuse, and although you’ve blocked it out and moved on, you still feel that something isn’t totally right in you? I know I hid all of my pain behind one big band-aid. I just “covered it up”. Band-aids don’t medicate or heal deep wounds, they hide the wound and make everything look ﬁne. I went through some very painful experiences of rejection and I hid every bit of it behind a giant band-aid of activities, a big smile, and accomplishments — meanwhile I was bleeding on the inside.
When you’re bleeding inside – it’s eventually going to show up on the outside . . . in your behavior, your relationships, your career, your self-image, your overall choices. Since I felt so bad about myself inside – I had to do things on the outside to feel better (at the time, I didn’t know this was why I was doing it). You may be thinking, “I’m ﬁne. What I went through was so long ago. I’m over it!” I thought I was too, until God began to show me little by little where I needed some major healing – deep down inside.
Things will never be right around you until they are ﬁrst right in you. God will change your circumstances, but He’ll change you ﬁrst. Just because we ignore something doesn’t make it go away. What happened to you that wounded your personality? Who hurt you? Who rejected you? Who belittled you? Who made you feel that you weren’t as good as someone else? Did you used to be fun or funny and now you just go through the motions of life? What memories are you still re-playing in your mind? Did you used to have dreams and goals on the inside?
With all that aside, what are you going to do with the rest of your life? Are you going to sit back and allow an experience(s) or a person stop you from doing what God put you on this Earth to do? You may be crying out, “God, what do you want me to do with my life?” And He’s saying, “Get healed.”
When soldiers get wounded in the war, they pull them off the front lines and let them heal. They’re no good to us out there ﬁghting all beat up. You may be trying to ﬁght the devil with one eye shut, one arm in a sling and on crutches. You’re not gonna win! You’ve got to get healed! I know I had to.
Isaiah 61:1 says, “He has sent me to heal the heartbroken . . . and comfort all who mourn.” Luke 4:18 says that Jesus came “to set the burdened and battered free…” In other words, Jesus came to set the captives free; Satan came to take the free captive! Satan wants to keep you trapped in something from your past – what you’ve done or what’s been done to you. Obviously, God knew Satan was out to break our hearts and steal our dreams or he wouldn’t have sent Jesus to be the Healer of the Brokenhearted.
As I began seeking God for my own healing, I discovered that in order to be healed, you ﬁrst have to diagnose the problem. You could be taking all the wrong medicines if you don’t know where you’re sick. You could be thinking that a new husband is going to ﬁx the loneliness you feel in your current marriage. Or that a little cosmetic surgery will give you the conﬁ dence you’ve lacked your whole life. Or that a promotion will heal your insecurities. Or that having a baby will bring joy back into your life. Nothing on the outside is going to change the way you feel on the inside.
It wasn’t until I began seeking God that I discovered my true problem. I used to think that I was just “shy” and that was my excuse for not going to certain events or being around certain people. Or I would think, “I’m just humble. I don’t have to be around the ‘big wigs’ to feel important.” It wasn’t humility, it wasn’t shyness, it was a fear of rejection! As God began to reveal this to me, I had to look back and see where this came from. And the Lord showed me speciﬁc times in my life where I was severely rejected and treated as having no value or 2nd best! I had to diagnose my problem! I had a major fear of rejection. Once I diagnosed the problem, I could treat it properly.
How do you discover the problem? As with any illness, you have to seek out The Physician! In our case, that’s God! He is the Great Physician! This is something only you can do for yourself! Have you ever been so sick that you don’t even want to get out of bed, but you know you need to go to the Doctor? You can’t send your friend, your spouse or your mom. They want to see YOU!
God wants to meet with you privately….just you and Him. You’re going to need to get comfortable being alone with God and having no “noise” on in the background. Shut the door, turn the cell phone off, turn the music off, turn the TV off, turn FaceBook off, and get alone with God. Talk to Him. Tell Him everything. Don’t hold anything back.
He wants to pour the medicine of His amazing love into your heart. It is THE CURE for every wound in your life! He loves you so much. He has always loved you. When you had that abortion, He still loved you. When you got in that wrong relationship, He still loved you. When you got out of church for a while, He still loved you. When you got mad and lost your temper, He still loved you. When you stopped talking with Him, He still loved you. When you were hurt, rejected, abused, He loved you.
How do you receive that healing when you’re alone with Him? Worshiping God for who you need Him to be brings healing. If your foot is hurting, you don’t go to the heart specialist. You go to a Podiatrist. If your heart isn’t beating right, you don’t go to the eye doctor. You go to a cardiologist. Well, if your heart is broken and wounded inside, you don’t need to seek God (only) as your “ﬁ nancial provider”. You seek God, Jehovah Rapha, the Healer of the Brokenhearted, as your healer.
There’s a story in Matthew 8 of a leper who is in need of healing. Verse 1 says, ‘Look! A leper is approaching, He kneels before him worshiping. ‘Sir,” the leper pleads, “if you want to, you can heal me.” Jesus touches the man. “I want to,” he says, “Be healed.” And instantly the leprosy disappears.
Notice 3 things:
#1. The leper wasn’t asking the Lord for a ﬁnancial miracle. He sought the Lord as His Healer. He actually CRIED OUT to Him. God hears your cries every time you call out to Him. When you’re alone at night, He hears you. When you’re sitting at your desk ﬁ ghting off depression, He hears you. When you’re driving to work in the morning holding back the tears, He hears you.
#2. He bowed down and worshiped BEFORE he got his healing. When we bow down and surrender all of our hurts to God while we’re still hurting, we are showing our faith in God to heal us. Bowing down is a true sign of total and complete dependency on God alone. It means you’re serious. It means you’re tired of being the way you are. It means you want to be healed!
#3. Jesus said, “I want to” — in other words, it is God’s will that you be healed from everything that hurts you. When you doubt God’s willingness, you’re really doubting His love for you. He wants to not only heal your heart and restore your soul, but He wants to make you whole.
What does being made whole mean? You can get to a place in your life where there are NO SIGNS you were ever sick before. NO SIGNS of emotional abuse! NO SIGNS of sexual abuse. NO SIGNS of physical abuse. NO SIGNS of insecurities. NO SIGNS of depression! NO SIGNS of rejection!
As you begin to look for opportunities to be alone with God, and lift your hands and begin praising Him for being who you need Him to be (your Healer), He will send an earthquake from Heaven to brake the chains that have had you bound – possibly for many years! It does not matter how bound up you may be right now, start praising Jesus, the Healer of the brokenhearted, loudly right there in your bedroom, in your bathroom, in your kitchen, in your car! I’m telling you from 1st hand experience – the chains will come off! Satan has no power. He cannot stand in the midst of praise!
Don’t spend your life in pain when Jesus came to heal the brokenhearted, to deliver the oppressed and to set the burdened and battered free. You have a calling. You have a purpose. Don’t waste another day of your life hurting over something that happened to you back then. Cry. Let loose. Get free! God wants to use you to set others free! Let Him heal your heart, restore your soul and make you whole. The broken become masters at mending.